today; just like tomorrow

Well, this year has been the best & worst fresh start life could of ever handed me, i've met some of the most amazing people I think I ever will .. and yet I've made the worst choices I think I've ever made. It's all so up & down. Like a rollercoaster - even like an avalanche. I debate whether I'm coming or going with certain people, but at the end of the day, you don't need a best friend to get you through school. And boy is that true:) The constant bitching behind closed doors, or even just when someone leaves a circle. It's crazy, almost terrifying. You just don't know whether it's because your actions trigger someone elses, or if people are working in sync behind each others' backs - it could be anything, but you always place the blame on yourself. Year 9 has definately been a great big reality check - It either makes or breaks people, and I think certain people this year have broken like an egg. For the best though, but the destruction they've left behind is just un-mendable. Like when you smash a vase, you paste the pieces back together, but they never quite fit. Well some people are well and truely broken because of the actions of one person. All i have left to say is, 'screw everybody else, stay true to yourself'. Never fake a friendship because of others, it's all about yourself - you are your own best friend.