so..riiiiight

we were thinking about all of this, & it's histerical how u make me out to be the bad guy? oh please.. seriously - i'm done with this now, 2 people have made me realise how pathetic some of my 'friends' really have been recently, & now my lips constantly wear 'can't be bothered' - so that's that.. riight?
but on the bright side i have my sister behind me :) so i'm thinking life's alright while she's around - & i have loads to be looking forward to, new coat, shopping, doing the topics i finally want to do in year 10 (yn) then Sophies birthday meal & blaaa :) roll it my waaaaay please & thankQ.

tellllll me this didnt happen!

this summer has so many highs :') that i never want to forget..

'BIG RONALD, BRAP BRAP.. W.O.M!'
- 4 bags of green rhys?
..how about i get you some Kappa trainers that actually have APPA on the end Kappa :)
verbally friggggid angel?
'do me up the duff gorgeous'

basically, he gels his fringe down to his eyes with Oxfams 'grease NO on or off, just on' gel - then his mum drags him through a bush backwards & whacks some more gel into it - he then pops a new york 'IM NOT A' yankee cap over all of it.. & not to mention he's so hard someone knocked his front tooth out & he reckons he's gonna' get it 'gold capped' - yet he can't even afford broadband?
no need to forget the fact he barely manages to own his own jumpers that say something OTHER than 'everlast' or 'lonsdale'.. & there ain't even the 'ever' on the front of last.
hand-me-downs springs to mind? .. mm, you just can't help someone beyond help.

oh sweetheart, didn't anyone mention crosshatching was last season? it's PLAID this year.
please tell me that ain't yo' mum? HELLL TO THE NAAAA'L.
S.O.L. fo'life.
u are.. finally.. everything that disgusts me, in one :') so therefore, i declare u.. a waste of space, in-humane & more than most.. U AINT GOT MUCH GOIN FOR YA AV YA LOVE?

i wrote this, because it happened to me, but now reading back on it - i've lost nothing, i wrote this FOR YOU.. because u lost everything i didn't? from what i THOUGHT i'd lost, i gained something so much more worthwhile & amazing than you could ever even DREAAAAM of.

wellll.. i was working on that whole change thing, with the help of like.. well the most important person in my life. now i don't know wht to do? what do u do when someone like that is gone? do u just .. hide away from the rest of the world till you're FORCED to face them? or do you face things with a head held high, even if it feels like your head is really the only anchor weighing you down. i have no lace to my shoes anymore? no need to wear bangles? noone to straighten my hair when i have bov? noone to moan to? noone to cry to? noone to text when they're about 2 steps away from me? noone to mock? noone to ask me 'what are you wearing today?' - that person is now a no-one : .. i'm a lost cause, lost soul, just lost.
surely things won't even be worth trying to change now? how can something so good just disappear?

i've looked back through the photos, the qoutes, the memories, the little stuff we said, the stuff we laughed at, the people we mocked, the words we made up, the things i copied from u & vice versa. that's it. there's nothing? nothing. i feel so small without u, when i was with u i felt like i was standing on the shoulders of giants & now you're not even around. i guess this is goodbye..

well, actually.

before i decide to change myself :) as i am happily working on it.
i just wna say to u, if u wna label me - then i suggest u knock yourself out.. but the reason i'm sadly not returning the favour is.

BECAUSE I CAN'T LABEL SHIT :)

oh hellllll.

yes yes :) alrighttttt BLOGGGGERS.
i've been reading rand blog spots, but man IM HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE! i don't think life could be much better at the moment really, my summer with savanna & my fave girlies sounds like the ultimate plan - been catching up with people that mean the most to me :) & constantly being with savanna just makes me whole really..
you know.. i really hoped i wouldn't have to resort to that, but u label me whatever makes u feel better gorgeous, because i have everything you don't. NO MATTER WHAT i will never let these girlies go :) savanna fissler, sophie thornton, isabelle ellmer, erin wosnitzka, rachel dicker, hannah sampson & kate watts - still a part of me :) through thick & thin..

ROLLLLLL ON SUMMMMMER 2009 :):)

love .. BEER BELLYS' BIGGEST FAN :D

one final thing - to remember, this summer..

BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY, BEER BELLY!

shame on you darlin :)

you make me wanna' LA LA.

..right, i knew i couldn't keep this up - but i need a masssive winge right now. i don't care about my typing, my language or anythhhhhing right now :D

IT'S SO ANNOYING HOW YOU'RE THE ONE FAKING EVERYTHING, BUT YET YOU'RE ACCUSING 'US' OF BEING THE FAKE ONES. YOU KNOB.

I mean this, like practically everything about you just makes me so sick, luckily i've managed to keep hold of my friends & believe it or not i've learnt from my mistakes & already i've benefited from this summer & the things that have happened :) i'm hoping to be a new person, for a new term - starting with miniscule things like haircut, wardrobe, piercings.. little things to keep me amused:)
do you realise, so many of us have just taken this all on the chin, escaped from the drama - FINALLY - and moved on :) just accept the way things are. call me what u want, i can be everything you can be, & vice versa.. just a shame there's no good left inside your little cold heart.

buttttttttttt - BIG but (someone heavily hinted you have one!) :) back to the positive side:) i just say, roll on the summer. because I have said my final goodbye to YOU for good & i'd like to say i hope to never see your face again but i now realise that's impossible.. so good ridence.
LAVVVVVVVIN LIFE & THE WAY THINGS ARE ATM :D
few people for keeeps?;

savanna fissler, erin wosnitzka, sophie thornton, lola thorpe, isabelle ellmer, elizabeth moran, rachel dicker, hannah sampson, kerry mcjannett & sian sycamore :)